crippling anxiety

Taking Control of Anxiety Instead of Letting it Control You

“Shouldn’t you be, like, worried?”
“About what?”
“Idk.”
“Omg you’re right!” 😰

^ A meme I saw about a conversation between you and anxiety.

If you struggle with anxiety—like myself—you’re familiar with how spot on that meme is.

Anxiety will lurk in the corner, sneak up on you, and take your breath away. Sometimes for reasons you can’t even pinpoint.

It just wanted to say hello and remind you that it still exists.

Oh, hello, anxiety. You again.

Dealing with anxiety on a regular basis is relatively new for me. It didn’t start happening until last year—around this time. And because it was somewhat foreign to me, I had absolutely no fucking idea what to do with it and how to deal with it. I’d walk around panicked, completely consumed, unable to process thoughts clearly, feeling like I was on the verge of breaking down.

And sometimes I did.

Can you relate? Crippling, isn’t it?

While anxiety still creeps up on me—pretty often, tbh—I finally discovered tools to help manage it when it does.

First, it‘s important decipher between what feeds it power and what actually helps it. In the past, feeling anxious instantly perpetuated thoughts of judgement:

Why am I anxious?
I don’t want to feel this way.
It’s not going away.
Omg. I’m so anxious!!!!

This only exacerbated it. Instead, I invite you to acknowledge its existence, without resistance.

From there, figure out what YOU need to feel grounded. Typically, anxiety comes from being energetically out of your body. The energy gets trapped in your chest, throat, and head space.

So, bring awareness to your lower body. Take deep belly breaths, feel into your legs, and wiggle your toes.

You’re breath is the most reliable and powerful tool to bring you back into body and the present moment.

The next time you’re feeling anxious: take a deep inhale for four seconds, pause for two, exhale for six, pause again for two, and repeat.

Your Feelings Have Something to Tell You

It’s haunting you. It consistently shows up in the face of the dark, knocking—aggressively, loudly, and repeatedly at your door.

And there you are, shaking, absolutely petrified. Instead of opening the door to face the the very thing that keeps coming back, you lay there, paralyzed. Plugging your ears. Trying to ignoring its existence.

It starts to seep into your body. Trembling your bones. Trapping itself, uncomfortably in your chest. Gripping you so tightly, you begin to suffocate.

You wish it away, but it stays, consuming you.

Perhaps, my love, this dark presence is not here to scare you, but to serve you. Maybe, just maybe, your resistance to face it is the exact reason it remains.

It’s knocking louder and louder because it has an important message to deliver. It so desperately has something to tell you.

I want you to open the door and let it reveal its truth.

Because whatever visitor is haunting you—anxiety, fear, sadness, anger, emptiness—it’s purposefully placed in your life to serve you.

I promise. It’s presence is its way of loving you.

The reason it tightly grips on to you is to constantly remind you that you need to listen to it. It’s causing you immense discomfort in hope that you’ll eventually move from where you are because it wants to reorder your life.

All it wants is to help you. To support you. To show you that there’s work to be done in your life. That something in your life right now is stealing you away from freedom and joy. Something isn’t in alignment.

Don’t be afraid of it. Open the door—feel it, face it, talk to it. It’s arrived to support your expansion and guide you to your hearts deepest desires.

There’s light masked under the darkness. Unmask it.

With love,

Devi