The Magic Within: How a Simple Apartment Became a Sanctuary of Growth and Transformation
I’ve lived in this apartment for nearly five years. It’s not impressive, or new, it’s quite old, and the carpets drive me crazy, and the elevator spooks us all, but it’s charming in it’s own way, special nonetheless.
I always dreamt of living within blocks from the beach. Settled in space that has big windows and sunlight that seeps through every crevice, every corner. The joy it would bring to tell younger me that this is where we live—that her many prayers, big hopes, sacred desires, the drawings and colorings of her future all came to be.
“This apartment has, unexpectedly, come to hold a great deal of meaning—the marker of childhood dreams actualizing, the very first place that’s ever felt like home, and a space that could only be named as medicine.”
I landed here to get out of an abusive relationship, left NYC and flew across the country with the intention of it being temporary. Years later, here I am, dancing in the kitchen, but now with these two adopted kitties by my side. I cohabitated with three different people in that time span and opened my space to many who needed couch to sleep, a place to stay when they didn’t have a home.
It’s held me, it’s held others.
It took me in when my bones felt bare. It coddled me through growth, pain, heart break—with friends, with partners. Through loving several people—hard, full, big and opening myself again and again. Through days of weeping endlessly into a pillow, & days of exploding with ecstasy. Through phases, cycles, the shedding, the becoming. Transition after transition. Myriad expressions, experiences, versions of myself took shape in this space. Memories run through these walls.
It may seem like a silly, little apartment, but there’s an inexplicable magic that lives within, that breaths throughout. A palpable energy that has a way of bringing you home. And when you’ve lived in something for so long, there’s grief that comes when letting it go.
It’s bittersweet to say the day has come, that it’s time to call somewhere new home but I’ll always consider this the medicine home.
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