Nutrition

Overcoming an Eating Disorder & Body Dysmorphia

It’s been a little over two years since I severely suffered from an eating disorder and body dysmorphia. And fuck. That struggle was life shattering in all the ways something can be, because it affected so many areas of my life.

Hating my body started in my earliest days, too. And the more and more I became aware of my body, the more and more that feeling intensified.

There were so many factors that lead into this. To start, I watched other women in my life obsess over their bodies and listened to them shame themselves for not being small enough.

That had it’s own effect and in a way programmed me to believe that was normal behavior.

Mixed with that, there was (still is) social pressure to look a certain way; constantly inundated with images and messages on how you should look. You’re spoon fed the idea that if you want to be loved, popular, successful, celebrated, happy...you MUST live up to these flawless expectations.

And I tried and I never achieved it, because it’s impossible. Because perfection doesn’t exist. Because what you see is distorted and photoshopped.

But, at the time, I didn’t have that awareness, so I grew to hate my body even more. And that hate and obsession is what catalyzed my eating disorder.

This a huge epidemic so many face, and it’s no surprise as to why. We’re taught how to hate ourselves. To berate ourselves, judge ourselves, be hard on ourselves, and constantly change ourselves.

Instead of being taught to accept, while striving to be the best version of ourselves—in a compassionate and loving way.

Once I realized that for myself, I had to spend time digging, unpacking, and relearning years of conditioning. And anyone who says that process is easy, they’re lying to you. It’s not. Loving yourself is hard because you’re told day in and day out not to.

I want to remind you not to hate yourself FOR hating yourself, because it isn’t your fault. To practice being gentler with yourself a little more everyday. To practice replacing hate with something neutral, as opposed to jumping right into something positive. To practice, even when resistance comes in. To practice, because you deserve it. Because you’re worth it.

xx

Devi

Master Your Mindset for Ultimate Fat Loss

You so desperately want to lose body fat and gain control of your habits, but you’re struggling. You’ve tried everything and wind up with the same outcome each time: back at square one, because you fell off...again.

At this point changing your body feels impossible. It seems like no matter what you do, you’re constantly stuck in that fucking awful ‘end-and-attempt’ cycle.

You’re fucking vexed (😣) and probably thinking to yourself, “𝚆𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚏𝚞𝚌𝚔 𝚒𝚜 𝚠𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚖𝚎?! 𝚆𝚑𝚢 𝚌𝚊𝚗’𝚝 𝙸 𝚍𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜? 𝚆𝚑𝚢 𝚌𝚊𝚗’𝚝 𝙸 𝚐𝚎𝚝 𝚖𝚢 𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚝 𝚝𝚘𝚐𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛?

Here’s the thing, boo. Most fat loss programs are doing you a huge disservice. While they give you the principals to lose body fat, they leave out the *most* important component for long term success: the mental work.

You can’t have a sustainable physical transformation, 𝘶𝘯𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴 you have a mental one too.

And that’s exactly what I’m going to teach you inside my FREE course: Master Your Mindset for Ultimate Fat Loss.

In this course, I’m going to show you what’s holding you back, exactly how to fix it, and help you completely transform your mindset. If you’re ready to finally gain control and achieve the results you’ve been longing for—head to the link HERE to join the course for free 😘 see ya inside!

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Being Judged for Eating Healthy

Oooh, I’m sorry. Did eating this, offend you?

Show of hands if you’ve ever received criticism from friends or family for eating healthier? 🙋‍♀️

“𝙾𝚑, 𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚔 𝚊𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚝𝚛𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘 𝚋𝚎 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚝𝚑𝚢.”
“𝙲𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚘𝚗. 𝙹𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚊 𝚋𝚒𝚝𝚎.”
“𝙴𝚊𝚝 𝚊 𝚋𝚞𝚛𝚐𝚎𝚛.”
“𝙸 𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚐𝚘𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞’𝚛𝚎 𝚘𝚗 𝚊 𝚍𝚒𝚎𝚝 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚌𝚊𝚗’𝚝 𝚎𝚊𝚝.”

They single you out and judge you because you’re choosing to make empowered choices for your body. 𝐋𝐎𝐋. Like, 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘥𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 take care of yourself. That’s sooooooo weird.

How fucked. Am I right?

I totally get how uncomfortable this feels, especially if you’re in the very beginning stages of making mindful choices. The constant nit-picking creates pressure making you second guess and can leave you feeling embarrassed.

Don’t let it, boo. You’re taking care of yourself and you should never feel guilty or ashamed for doing so.

Their judgements and criticism is about them, not about you. You’re a mirror reflecting something back to them that they don’t want to face. It’s showing them an insecurity and bringing up their own stuff about self-care. Deep down, they’re upset with themselves for failing to take responsibility of their own health.

But instead of making changes—like you are—they try to drag you down with them, so they project on you.

Nonetheless, even with that awareness, it’s annoying and frustrating. So, here are some responses to help navigate the situation with more ease:

>> “I’m not hungry, but thank you for offering.”
>> “This way of eating really works for me and I feel great, so I’m gunna keep doing it.“
>> “I don’t judge you for what you put in your body, so why do you feel the need to judge me?”
>> “Yeah...you’re right. How dare I take care of my body, that’s sooooo weird.”
>> “The food I put in my body doesn’t effect you, so I’m not really sure why you care? You should probably unpack whatever it is that’s coming up for you and figure out why my dietary choices upset you so much.

^^ (The last part is optional, but I like to be a passive aggressive bitch sometimes 🤷‍♀️).

Cheers to taking care of yourself and forgetting about what others have to say about it.

XX

Devi

Overcoming an Eating Disorder

Food controlled about five years of my life. For those who don’t know, I suffered from a life-shattering eating disorder.

It all started in high school. I wanted to change my body to fit society’s fucked up standards of beauty. So, I started dieting. Obsessively. I was constantly following something and I tried just about everything. Juice cleanses. Low carb. Low fat. Paleo. Vegan. The military diet. Weight Watchers. Keto. Calorie restricting. There was even a week when I only ate baby food (😣).

I’d follow these diets for a week or two at a time, and when I “messed up” or deprivation sank in—I ate anything I could get my hands on. If there wasn’t enough food at home, I’d go to the grocery store to buy more.

Let me clarify: Binging is NOT Thanksgiving. It is NOT overeating. It’s eating a meal, and then scavenging through your cabinets to see what else you can eat; cookies, ice cream, bread, peanut butter, rice cakes—all in one sitting. You might start munching on food you don’t like. And after an episode of binging, you can’t move. You’ve stuffed yourself to the point of overwhelming discomfort.

For the longest time, I didn’t even realize it was an eating disorder. I assumed I couldn’t “get my shit together.” That I just needed to learn to control myself. But that wasn’t actually the case.

You see, an eating disorder is much deeper than having willpower around food. It’s a mask that disguises your insecurities, your pain, and your suffering. For some, it’s a coping mechanism to numb. For others, like myself, it‘s caused by body dysmorphia.

An eating disorder is not fixed by “fixing” your body or following a diet you can finally adhere to.

Recovery involves the unpacking of why and how it developed. It’s addressing the underlying issue and dismantling through all the narratives that are robbing you from feeling normal around food and in your body.

Healing isn’t linear, either. This journey is full of disarray; ups and downs. But healing is possible. I’m walking example and if you’re struggling, you will be one day, too. I believe in you. There is freedom. I promise.

Keep going. Keep trying. Keep believing.

Devi

What The F is Bacterial Vaginosis?

Your vagina is high maintenance. She craves your attention and has very delicate needs. The minute you don’t treat her the way she wants to be treated, she retaliates...

“𝙼𝚖𝚖𝚔𝚊𝚢, 𝚋𝚒𝚝𝚌𝚑. 𝙸’𝚖 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚖𝚊𝚔𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚕 𝚞𝚗𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚝𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎.”

𝙻𝚘𝚟𝚎,
𝚈𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚟𝚊𝚐𝚒𝚗𝚊
🖤☠️

And in some cases, you wind up with BV.

What the fuck is BV!? 🤷‍♀️

BV stands for bacterial vaginosis. It is not an STD. It develops when when there’s a disruption to the normal vaginal flora. In other words, there’s a change to the PH of your vagina. In order to maintain a solid PH balance, the good bacteria and bad bacteria need to be in healthy harmony. This can be difficult to do considering all the things that go in your vagina and around your vulva.

BV can be caused by a myriad of things, including:
>> harsh chemicals and fragrances
>> not changing your tampons regularly
>> frequent sex partners
>> clothing
>> poor diet

The main characteristic of BV is the odor. Typically, you’ll notice your vagina smells different or perhaps the smell is heightened.

If you have it, don’t be alarmed—it’s treatable, it’s common, and you’re not alone. About two out of five women have BV, but 84% of women don’t even realize they do; most women don’t even know what it is. Depending on how bad the imbalance is, it can dissipate on its own in a few days. But if not, see your gynecologist so you can treat it with antibiotics.

BV is known to be a reoccurring infection, so it’s not unlikely you’ll get it again.

Some things to consider to help prevent BV:

> Apple Cider Vinegar 🤪
> Let that bitch air out
> Don’t sit in sweaty gym clothes
> Buy cotton underwear
> Avoid the harsh chemicals and fragrances found in many soaps, lubricants, condoms, tampons, and pads.
> Thoroughly clean her with water, daily.
> If you prefer to use soap to wash her (it’s not necessary), use unscented soap. I like Dr. Bronner’s. And if you do use soap, stick to the SAME soap. Changing it up can throw off the PH. She doesn’t like being introduced to new things. She prefers familiarity.

So there you have it.

Lessons on your vagina from your favorite slut 💋

Devi

Benefits of Apple Cider Vinegar

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Drinking my daily ACV shot, per usual. All the dirty details on why and how and when is below:

𝐁𝐄𝐍𝐄𝐅𝐈𝐓𝐒:
•promotes healthy blood sugar levels
•aids in digestion
•regulates ph
•great for your vaginal health — yay! (if you struggle with BV or yeast infections, ACV is your best friend).

𝐇𝐎𝐖 𝐓𝐎:

Take a tablespoon or two of ACV (preferably one that is raw, organic, unfiltered, & unpasteurized), dilute it in water, add lemon or lime — drink up!

𝐖𝐇𝐄𝐍 𝐓𝐎:
I personally take it 2-3x a day right before meals

P.S. I’m thoroughly enjoying the daily IG stories of you all drinking an ACV shot — keep it up, magical humans! I’m happy you’re all on board and taking daily action steps for your health 🖤 #proudofyouuu #acvshots

Do You Feel Pressured to Always Drink When You're Out?

In the past, when I went out drinking, I felt compelled to have a drink in my hand at all times. The minute I finished a drink, I’d order another one. Always. Without fail. Irrespective of if I actually wanted another drink or not.

And when asked the inevitable questions...

𝙲𝚊𝚗 𝙸 𝚋𝚞𝚢 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚊 𝚍𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚔? 𝚂𝚞𝚛𝚎.
𝚂𝚑𝚘𝚝𝚜? 𝙳𝚞𝚑.
𝙼𝚘𝚛𝚎 𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚝𝚜? 𝚈𝚎𝚊𝚑!? 🤷‍♀

I’d wake up the next day with an insufferable hangover (☠️), repeating the same conversation I had with myself the week before:

“𝙵𝚞𝚌𝚔. 𝚆𝚑𝚢 𝚍𝚘 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚍𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚝𝚘 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏, 𝙳𝚎𝚟𝚒? 𝙽𝚘 𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎 𝚍𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚢𝚘𝚞.”

As much I do love drinking wine and tequila, I don’t particularly enjoy getting fucked up on the reg. I do, however, enjoy going out and being a social butterfly on the reg. But, I was in a predicament, because when I went out I felt obligated to continuously drink throughout the night.

I know you know this and I know I knew this, but you can go out WITHOUT drinking.

I get why this is hard to do because there is that social pressure put on you to drink, especially when you’re in a bar.

When you tell people you’re not drinking, they get all up in your space and chastise your right to say no. They question you. Judge you. And encourage you to, “𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎” even though you already said no.

Listen.

When someone berates you for saying no, it has nothing to do with you and has absolutely everything to do with them. It’s stirring something up for them. It’s triggering them in some way, bringing up an insecurity, and challenging their beliefs. As a result, they project on you.

^^ that’s not your problem. It’s not your work. 𝐃𝐨𝐧’𝐭 𝐥𝐞𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐮𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐲 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐰𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐠.

The next time you’re out, before giving that impulsive “yes,” ask yourself if YOU actually want another drink.

You’re under no obligation to have another drink, even when someone offers...even when all your friends are taking another round of shots. You don’t have to conform.

Cheers to that,

Devi

Is Your Diet Holding You Hostage from Living Your Life?

I used to follow diets that mapped out what I could and couldn’t eat, which essentially mapped out what I could and couldn’t do.

No alcohol meant no spontaneous trips to the winery. No flirtatious banter with a bumble date while eating an ice cream cone (because, duh, just trying to live The Notebook). And definitely no buying a round of tequila shots while dancing the night away with my best friends.

I was living my life in the confines of a diet and to be quite honest, I was fucking miserable. And at what cost? Sure, being punctilious with my nutrition allowed me to lose weight faster and kept my body fat percentage lower.

But this obsessive behavior around food and my body was taking control. The extent of my socialization was at the gym, and my friends stopped asking me to hangout because my answer was almost always, “I can’t tonight.”

This way of living was causing serious destruction, which eventually lead me to an important question. A question that essentially altered (and drastically improved) my life: Was being leaner 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 more important than spending quality time with my friends and living my god damn life?

The answer was a resounding NO.

I decided to redefine what held significance in my life, and my happiness was theee most significant. Feeling good in my body makes me happy, and so does building profound connections with people I love over food and cocktails and meaningful conversation.

Being lean really didn’t mean anything to me. It was just something I was conditioned to believe would make me happy, and yet it didn’t.

Now my life is a mix of eating nutrient dense foods and drinking margaritas with extra salt around the rim. It’s a mix of taking vitamins and taking shots. It’s a mix of honoring my body, while also honoring my happiness.

Nourishing your body is vital, so is nourishing your happiness. Neglecting one or the other hosts several problems, which is why both extremes just don’t work. There has to be a middle ground. There has to be balance.

So, if you’re ready to finally follow a program that teaches you how to have both—click HERE and let’s work together. I’ll teach you how, baby girl 💓 your health and happiness is important to me.

xx

Devi

The Scale is Preventing You From Seeing Progress

Here’s what I don’t want: You to spend your time, standing on the scale—anxious—waiting for it to give you validation or approval that you’ve progressed. Letting it take full power and control and define what you’re doing.

This device—an evil one, truly—can drain your inner peace and sink you into the depths of crippling self-deprecation. Any good feeling, or any ounce of pride can be sucked right out of you. And the more you feed into this cycle, the more it will make you feel something like itself—unimportant.

The scale is unimportant. Unimportant to your journey. Unimportant to your life. Unimportant to your progress.

There are a myriad of ways to track your progressions, and the scale isn’t the best method. It’s too deceiving to trust. Your weight will fluctuate daily due to your hormones, stress, water retention, sleeping patterns, muscle growth, and the various other factors that can affect change. It’s also very common for you to lose body fat, without dropping a single pound.

In addition to that, the scale tends to mislead you into playing a very dark game—the number game.

I’ve played this game once before. And it wasn’t fun. I became so blinded by the numbers, I let those numbers subtract from my worth and define the entirety of my existence and successes. It triggered unhealthy behaviors—the negative self talk, the excessive exercise, and the restrictive dieting.

I don’t want that for you.

I don’t want you to get beaten up from this game. But what I do want, is for you to conceptualize something really important: a number is just a number.

And the more you realize that, understand that—the more freedom you will have and the more progress you will see. You will become highly aware of all the ways you’re changing and growing because you’re not letting a silly numerical fraction be the deciding factor anymore.

Instead, you’re honing your intuition, focusing on how you feel, and celebrating every non-scale victory your making. The important shit.

So, stop putting all your attention on this malicious tool. Adapt new tools—better tools—to track your progress. Got it, baby girl?

xx

Devi

Is Working With a Coach *Really* Worth The Investment?

To be completely honest, I never saw the value in the investment to work with a coach. Why should I spend my dollars on someone when I have access to the resources I need right at my finger tips?

If I was uncertain, I could just type my question into the Googs and like magic—the solution appears. It’s fairly easy to learn the best methods and even stumble upon programs without spending a dime because all you need is the internet.

But is that really all you need? Just the information?

Here’s the thing: I had the information I needed to propel me forward, and yet, I was still running in circles, never actualizing my desires. And I’m sure you’re in a similar boat right now. You continue to convince yourself over and over you can figure it out on your own, but you find yourself still stuck.

Why is that?

Lack of information isn’t the problem, clearly. It’s the lack of accountability and support—the important fundamentals to achieving success. You need support. You need accountability. And you can’t provide either of those things on your own.

Once I realized that, I made a two thousand dollar investment for business coaching and it was one of the best decisions I made. For myself. For my sanity. And for my business.

And I know, making a hefty investment is petrifying—this is a valid feeling to experience—trust me, making the investment myself put me at the edge of my seat. But the value is there—and it’s worthy every penny.

Working with a coach will save you time, give you clarity, direction, and prevent you from experiencing the grief you go through when you’re on your own. You’ll have someone holding your hand and giving you a nudge when you’re not motivated—which is a lot more than you think. And most importantly, when you face the treacherous waters (and you will), you’ll have someone to help you sail out of the storm into the calm parts of the sea.

…so yeah, maybe the expense is worth it after all, don’t you agree?

Now, what you decide to do with this information is up to you. But, if you are ready to reach your greatest potential faster and with more ease—click HERE and apply to work with me.

Let’s fucking do this, babe.

xx

Devi