Overcoming an Eating Disorder

Food controlled about five years of my life. For those who donโ€™t know, I suffered from a life-shattering eating disorder.

It all started in high school. I wanted to change my body to fit societyโ€™s fucked up standards of beauty. So, I started dieting. Obsessively. I was constantly following something and I tried just about everything. Juice cleanses. Low carb. Low fat. Paleo. Vegan. The military diet. Weight Watchers. Keto. Calorie restricting. There was even a week when I only ate baby food (๐Ÿ˜ฃ).

Iโ€™d follow these diets for a week or two at a time, and when I โ€œmessed upโ€ or deprivation sank inโ€”I ate anything I could get my hands on. If there wasnโ€™t enough food at home, Iโ€™d go to the grocery store to buy more.

Let me clarify: Binging is NOT Thanksgiving. It is NOT overeating. Itโ€™s eating a meal, and then scavenging through your cabinets to see what else you can eat; cookies, ice cream, bread, peanut butter, rice cakesโ€”all in one sitting. You might start munching on food you donโ€™t like. And after an episode of binging, you canโ€™t move. Youโ€™ve stuffed yourself to the point of overwhelming discomfort.

For the longest time, I didnโ€™t even realize it was an eating disorder. I assumed I couldnโ€™t โ€œget my shit together.โ€ That I just needed to learn to control myself. But that wasnโ€™t actually the case.

You see, an eating disorder is much deeper than having willpower around food. Itโ€™s a mask that disguises your insecurities, your pain, and your suffering. For some, itโ€™s a coping mechanism to numb. For others, like myself, itโ€˜s caused by body dysmorphia.

An eating disorder is not fixed by โ€œfixingโ€ your body or following a diet you can finally adhere to.

Recovery involves the unpacking of why and how it developed. Itโ€™s addressing the underlying issue and dismantling through all the narratives that are robbing you from feeling normal around food and in your body.

Healing isnโ€™t linear, either. This journey is full of disarray; ups and downs. But healing is possible. Iโ€™m walking example and if youโ€™re struggling, you will be one day, too. I believe in you. There is freedom. I promise.

Keep going. Keep trying. Keep believing.


What The F is Bacterial Vaginosis?

Your vagina is high maintenance. She craves your attention and has very delicate needs. The minute you donโ€™t treat her the way she wants to be treated, she retaliates...

โ€œ๐™ผ๐š–๐š–๐š”๐šŠ๐šข, ๐š‹๐š’๐š๐šŒ๐š‘. ๐™ธโ€™๐š– ๐šŠ๐š‹๐š˜๐šž๐š ๐š๐š˜ ๐š–๐šŠ๐š”๐šŽ ๐šข๐š˜๐šž ๐š๐šŽ๐šŽ๐š• ๐š›๐šŽ๐šŠ๐š• ๐šž๐š—๐šŒ๐š˜๐š–๐š๐š˜๐š›๐š๐šŠ๐š‹๐š•๐šŽ.โ€

๐šˆ๐š˜๐šž๐š› ๐šŸ๐šŠ๐š๐š’๐š—๐šŠ
๐Ÿ–คโ˜ ๏ธ

And in some cases, you wind up with BV.

What the fuck is BV!? ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ

BV stands for bacterial vaginosis. It is not an STD. It develops when when thereโ€™s a disruption to the normal vaginal flora. In other words, thereโ€™s a change to the PH of your vagina. In order to maintain a solid PH balance, the good bacteria and bad bacteria need to be in healthy harmony. This can be difficult to do considering all the things that go in your vagina and around your vulva.

BV can be caused by a myriad of things, including:
>> harsh chemicals and fragrances
>> not changing your tampons regularly
>> frequent sex partners
>> clothing
>> poor diet

The main characteristic of BV is the odor. Typically, youโ€™ll notice your vagina smells different or perhaps the smell is heightened.

If you have it, donโ€™t be alarmedโ€”itโ€™s treatable, itโ€™s common, and youโ€™re not alone. About two out of five women have BV, but 84% of women donโ€™t even realize they do; most women donโ€™t even know what it is. Depending on how bad the imbalance is, it can dissipate on its own in a few days. But if not, see your gynecologist so you can treat it with antibiotics.

BV is known to be a reoccurring infection, so itโ€™s not unlikely youโ€™ll get it again.

Some things to consider to help prevent BV:

> Apple Cider Vinegar ๐Ÿคช
> Let that bitch air out
> Donโ€™t sit in sweaty gym clothes
> Buy cotton underwear
> Avoid the harsh chemicals and fragrances found in many soaps, lubricants, condoms, tampons, and pads.
> Thoroughly clean her with water, daily.
> If you prefer to use soap to wash her (itโ€™s not necessary), use unscented soap. I like Dr. Bronnerโ€™s. And if you do use soap, stick to the SAME soap. Changing it up can throw off the PH. She doesnโ€™t like being introduced to new things. She prefers familiarity.

So there you have it.

Lessons on your vagina from your favorite slut ๐Ÿ’‹


Benefits of Apple Cider Vinegar


Drinking my daily ACV shot, per usual. All the dirty details on why and how and when is below:

โ€ขpromotes healthy blood sugar levels
โ€ขaids in digestion
โ€ขregulates ph
โ€ขgreat for your vaginal health โ€” yay! (if you struggle with BV or yeast infections, ACV is your best friend).

๐‡๐Ž๐– ๐“๐Ž:

Take a tablespoon or two of ACV (preferably one that is raw, organic, unfiltered, & unpasteurized), dilute it in water, add lemon or lime โ€” drink up!

๐–๐‡๐„๐ ๐“๐Ž:
I personally take it 2-3x a day right before meals

P.S. Iโ€™m thoroughly enjoying the daily IG stories of you all drinking an ACV shot โ€” keep it up, magical humans! Iโ€™m happy youโ€™re all on board and taking daily action steps for your health ๐Ÿ–ค #proudofyouuu #acvshots

Do You Feel Pressured to Always Drink When You're Out?

In the past, when I went out drinking, I felt compelled to have a drink in my hand at all times. The minute I finished a drink, Iโ€™d order another one. Always. Without fail. Irrespective of if I actually wanted another drink or not.

And when asked the inevitable questions...

๐™ฒ๐šŠ๐š— ๐™ธ ๐š‹๐šž๐šข ๐šข๐š˜๐šž ๐šŠ ๐š๐š›๐š’๐š—๐š”? ๐š‚๐šž๐š›๐šŽ.
๐š‚๐š‘๐š˜๐š๐šœ? ๐™ณ๐šž๐š‘.
๐™ผ๐š˜๐š›๐šŽ ๐šœ๐š‘๐š˜๐š๐šœ? ๐šˆ๐šŽ๐šŠ๐š‘!? ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€

Iโ€™d wake up the next day with an insufferable hangover (โ˜ ๏ธ), repeating the same conversation I had with myself the week before:

โ€œ๐™ต๐šž๐šŒ๐š”. ๐š†๐š‘๐šข ๐š๐š˜ ๐šข๐š˜๐šž ๐š๐š˜ ๐š๐š‘๐š’๐šœ ๐š๐š˜ ๐šข๐š˜๐šž๐š›๐šœ๐šŽ๐š•๐š, ๐™ณ๐šŽ๐šŸ๐š’? ๐™ฝ๐š˜ ๐š–๐š˜๐š›๐šŽ ๐š๐š›๐š’๐š—๐š”๐š’๐š—๐š ๐š๐š˜๐š› ๐šข๐š˜๐šž.โ€

As much I do love drinking wine and tequila, I donโ€™t particularly enjoy getting fucked up on the reg. I do, however, enjoy going out and being a social butterfly on the reg. But, I was in a predicament, because when I went out I felt obligated to continuously drink throughout the night.

I know you know this and I know I knew this, but you can go out WITHOUT drinking.

I get why this is hard to do because there is that social pressure put on you to drink, especially when youโ€™re in a bar.

When you tell people youโ€™re not drinking, they get all up in your space and chastise your right to say no. They question you. Judge you. And encourage you to, โ€œ๐š“๐šž๐šœ๐š ๐š‘๐šŠ๐šŸ๐šŽ ๐š˜๐š—๐šŽ ๐š–๐š˜๐š›๐šŽโ€ even though you already said no.


When someone berates you for saying no, it has nothing to do with you and has absolutely everything to do with them. Itโ€™s stirring something up for them. Itโ€™s triggering them in some way, bringing up an insecurity, and challenging their beliefs. As a result, they project on you.

^^ thatโ€™s not your problem. Itโ€™s not your work. ๐ƒ๐จ๐งโ€™๐ญ ๐ฅ๐ž๐ญ ๐ญ๐ก๐ž๐ข๐ซ ๐ข๐ง๐ฌ๐ž๐œ๐ฎ๐ซ๐ข๐ญ๐ฒ ๐ฆ๐š๐ค๐ž ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐œ๐ก๐จ๐ข๐œ๐ž ๐Ÿ๐ž๐ž๐ฅ ๐ฐ๐ซ๐จ๐ง๐ .

The next time youโ€™re out, before giving that impulsive โ€œyes,โ€ ask yourself if YOU actually want another drink.

Youโ€™re under no obligation to have another drink, even when someone offers...even when all your friends are taking another round of shots. You donโ€™t have to conform.

Cheers to that,


Is Your Diet Holding You Hostage from Living Your Life?

I used to follow diets that mapped out what I could and couldnโ€™t eat, which essentially mapped out what I could and couldnโ€™t do.

No alcohol meant no spontaneous trips to the winery. No flirtatious banter with a bumble date while eating an ice cream cone (because, duh, just trying to live The Notebook). And definitely no buying a round of tequila shots while dancing the night away with my best friends.

I was living my life in the confines of a diet and to be quite honest, I was fucking miserable. And at what cost? Sure, being punctilious with my nutrition allowed me to lose weight faster and kept my body fat percentage lower.

But this obsessive behavior around food and my body was taking control. The extent of my socialization was at the gym, and my friends stopped asking me to hangout because my answer was almost always, โ€œI canโ€™t tonight.โ€

This way of living was causing serious destruction, which eventually lead me to an important question. A question that essentially altered (and drastically improved) my life: Was being leaner ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ญ๐˜บ more important than spending quality time with my friends and living my god damn life?

The answer was a resounding NO.

I decided to redefine what held significance in my life, and my happiness was theee most significant. Feeling good in my body makes me happy, and so does building profound connections with people I love over food and cocktails and meaningful conversation.

Being lean really didnโ€™t mean anything to me. It was just something I was conditioned to believe would make me happy, and yet it didnโ€™t.

Now my life is a mix of eating nutrient dense foods and drinking margaritas with extra salt around the rim. Itโ€™s a mix of taking vitamins and taking shots. Itโ€™s a mix of honoring my body, while also honoring my happiness.

Nourishing your body is vital, so is nourishing your happiness. Neglecting one or the other hosts several problems, which is why both extremes just donโ€™t work. There has to be a middle ground. There has to be balance.

So, if youโ€™re ready to finally follow a program that teaches you how to have bothโ€”click HERE and letโ€™s work together. Iโ€™ll teach you how, baby girl ๐Ÿ’“ your health and happiness is important to me.



The Scale is Preventing You From Seeing Progress

Hereโ€™s what I donโ€™t want: You to spend your time, standing on the scaleโ€”anxiousโ€”waiting for it to give you validation or approval that youโ€™ve progressed. Letting it take full power and control and define what youโ€™re doing.

This deviceโ€”an evil one, trulyโ€”can drain your inner peace and sink you into the depths of crippling self-deprecation. Any good feeling, or any ounce of pride can be sucked right out of you. And the more you feed into this cycle, the more it will make you feel something like itselfโ€”unimportant.

The scale is unimportant. Unimportant to your journey. Unimportant to your life. Unimportant to your progress.

There are a myriad of ways to track your progressions, and the scale isnโ€™t the best method. Itโ€™s too deceiving to trust. Your weight will fluctuate daily due to your hormones, stress, water retention, sleeping patterns, muscle growth, and the various other factors that can affect change. Itโ€™s also very common for you to lose body fat, without dropping a single pound.

In addition to that, the scale tends to mislead you into playing a very dark gameโ€”the number game.

Iโ€™ve played this game once before. And it wasnโ€™t fun. I became so blinded by the numbers, I let those numbers subtract from my worth and define the entirety of my existence and successes. It triggered unhealthy behaviorsโ€”the negative self talk, the excessive exercise, and the restrictive dieting.

I donโ€™t want that for you.

I donโ€™t want you to get beaten up from this game. But what I do want, is for you to conceptualize something really important: a number is just a number.

And the more you realize that, understand thatโ€”the more freedom you will have and the more progress you will see. You will become highly aware of all the ways youโ€™re changing and growing because youโ€™re not letting a silly numerical fraction be the deciding factor anymore.

Instead, youโ€™re honing your intuition, focusing on how you feel, and celebrating every non-scale victory your making. The important shit.

So, stop putting all your attention on this malicious tool. Adapt new toolsโ€”better toolsโ€”to track your progress. Got it, baby girl?



Is Working With a Coach *Really* Worth The Investment?

To be completely honest, I never saw the value in the investment to work with a coach. Why should I spend my dollars on someone when I have access to the resources I need right at my finger tips?

If I was uncertain, I could just type my question into the Googs and like magicโ€”the solution appears. Itโ€™s fairly easy to learn the best methods and even stumble upon programs without spending a dime because all you need is the internet.

But is that really all you need? Just the information?

Hereโ€™s the thing: I had the information I needed to propel me forward, and yet, I was still running in circles, never actualizing my desires. And Iโ€™m sure youโ€™re in a similar boat right now. You continue to convince yourself over and over you can figure it out on your own, but you find yourself still stuck.

Why is that?

Lack of information isnโ€™t the problem, clearly. Itโ€™s the lack of accountability and supportโ€”the important fundamentals to achieving success. You need support. You need accountability. And you canโ€™t provide either of those things on your own.

Once I realized that, I made a two thousand dollar investment for business coaching and it was one of the best decisions I made. For myself. For my sanity. And for my business.

And I know, making a hefty investment is petrifyingโ€”this is a valid feeling to experienceโ€”trust me, making the investment myself put me at the edge of my seat. But the value is thereโ€”and itโ€™s worthy every penny.

Working with a coach will save you time, give you clarity, direction, and prevent you from experiencing the grief you go through when youโ€™re on your own. Youโ€™ll have someone holding your hand and giving you a nudge when youโ€™re not motivatedโ€”which is a lot more than you think. And most importantly, when you face the treacherous waters (and you will), youโ€™ll have someone to help you sail out of the storm into the calm parts of the sea.

โ€ฆso yeah, maybe the expense is worth it after all, donโ€™t you agree?

Now, what you decide to do with this information is up to you. But, if you are ready to reach your greatest potential faster and with more easeโ€”click HERE and apply to work with me.

Letโ€™s fucking do this, babe.



The Number One Reason You Can't Lose Weight

How many times have you committed to following a program perfectly, only to find yourself starting all over againโ€ฆand againโ€ฆand again?

Probably a lot, right?

Youโ€™re trapped in this cycle of ending and attemptingโ€”never actually getting anywhere. Never realizing your aspirations. And youโ€™re fucking frustrated.

โ€œIf I could just get my shit together,โ€ you think to yourself.

^^^ but this isnโ€™t actually the problem.

The problem: youโ€™re convinced anything less than perfect isnโ€™t good enough. So when you fall short of the flawless expectations, you give up and restart later.

Youโ€™re going to mess up, babe. Thatโ€™s reality. But those mess-ups arenโ€™t the problemโ€”believing your mess ups are keeping from your goals is the problem. As a recovering perfectionist, I get this is hard to conceptualize and release. But itโ€™s critical if you want to affect real change.

So, here are two ways you can practice breaking up with it:

1. Instead of attaching to perfect action, get obsessed with taking ANY action: messy action, imperfect action, and above all, consistent action. Show up and do the work, even when itโ€™s far from being perfect.

A habit is, at its core, an action taken so consistently it becomes nearly automatic. When ANYTHING is executed with frequency, every individual instance adds to the aggregate, but is by itself less important.

You donโ€™t stress out over brushing your teeth, but itโ€™s 100% the case you sometimes half ass itโ€”whatโ€™s important is youโ€™ve got good dental hygiene so your teeth donโ€™t fall out of your head.

Same thing with anything else.

2. Reward yourself every time you take actionโ€”including the messy action, and especially when you wouldnโ€™t have done it in the past.

If you stumble home drunk and still remember to brush your teeth, give yourself a high five.

Change is ALWAYS easier with positive feedback. Rewarding yourself for doing the hard thing when itโ€™s hardest DESERVES some recognition. Those proverbial Gold Stars add up, building momentum.

With love,




Is Doing More Better for Fat Loss?

Is doing more ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ญ๐˜บ better for fat loss?

Working out more only ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฎ๐˜ด like itโ€™s a better fat loss plan, because youโ€™re doing more. But how many times have you tried committing to the gym six days a week, only to find yourself falling off?

You assume itโ€™s because you canโ€™t get your shit together, right?

Itโ€™s not that, baby girl.

Itโ€™s because youโ€™re over-committing yourself and doing too much too soon. You wind up feeling overwhelmed because itโ€™s impossible to maintain.

And then you give up.

Circling us back to the answer of the original questionโ€”๐ฆ๐จ๐ซ๐ž ๐ข๐ฌ ๐ง๐จ๐ญ ๐›๐ž๐ญ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ, ๐›๐ž๐ญ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ ๐ข๐ฌ ๐›๐ž๐ญ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ. Better is whatโ€™s most practical for YOU and what you can be consistent with.

Youโ€™re more inclined to stick to something if itโ€™s easy for youโ€”and consistency is the true game changer here.

So, how do you establish that?

1. If it feels like too much, take something out of the equation.

Example: if youโ€™re trying to workout five days a week, but youโ€™re having a hard time scheduling it all in, cut down to three or four days a week.

2. Start with one to two habits at a time and build from there.

Example: rather than trying to change everything in your diet at once, start by creating one healthy habit at a time and then add from there.

3. Be easy on yourself. No really, itโ€™s just fitness, itโ€™s not that serious. Stop beating yourself up about slipping upโ€”youโ€™re only human.



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Three Perspective Shifts That will Dramatically Improve Your Life

Three perspective shifts that will dramatically improve your life and finally allow you to get the results you want:

๐‚๐จ๐ง๐ฌ๐ข๐ฌ๐ญ๐ž๐ง๐ญ ๐€๐œ๐ญ๐ข๐จ๐ง >> ๐๐ž๐ซ๐Ÿ๐ž๐œ๐ญ ๐€๐œ๐ญ๐ข๐จ๐ง

Attaching to the idea you need to be perfect with every action step you take paralyzes from taking any step at all. And without taking those steps, you remain stagnant.

Of course it would be nice to perfectly execute each one of your goals, but it isnโ€™t going to work out that wayโ€ฆand it doesnโ€™t even need to.

To move forward and see results, you just have to take consistent actionโ€”even if it happens to be messy action.

Messy action might mean working out for 15 minutes instead of your planned 40 because thatโ€™s all you have time forโ€”and guess what? Itโ€™s better than doing nothing at all, because itโ€™s still action in the right direction.

Do something. Literally anything. Even if and when itโ€™s messy.

๐’๐ก๐จ๐ฐ ๐‹๐จ๐ฏ๐ž >> ๐€๐›๐š๐ง๐๐จ๐ง ๐‡๐š๐ญ๐ž

If youโ€™re running through the myriad of reasons as to why you hate something, it creates resistance making it even harder to do whatever it is.

We donโ€™t work well when we operating from a place of hate. It leads to rebound, self-sabotage, and like I said, a fuck ton of resistance.

So, rather than heavily focusing on the painโ€”replace that pain with pleasure. Flip the script into something positive; find a new association and affirmation that stems from a place of love and enjoyment.

๐’๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ญ๐š๐ข๐ง๐š๐›๐ฅ๐ž ๐‘๐ž๐ฌ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ญ๐ฌ >> ๐๐ฎ๐ข๐œ๐ค ๐‘๐ž๐ฌ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ญ๐ฌ

You want it and you want it right now. So you take all the drastic measures required to get those results FAST...only to fall off. Again.

Youโ€™re trying to bite off way more than you can chew, adhere to impossible commitment, and follow guidelines that only work for an extended period of time...if that.

If you want to create lasting results, you need to drop the quick-fix mentality and follow a program set up for long-term success.

There you have it three powerful ways to improve your life and get the results youโ€™ve always wanted โšก๏ธ Put them to action and watch your life drastically improve.


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